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I thought it over again, and i've decided to stop updating my blog. I'll take it back up in the future if I feel like it. However, i'd like to leave a message here to help me remember a matter that was once quite important to me.

CAUTION: Below is a very very large post.

I'm sure you're wondering why I stopped interacting with you.

You probably know already, but i'd like to clear it up for my sake. I think it would be better if we'd just stop talking from here on.

I've been told by many people that you liked me, over and over, however, I do not believe that those people were telling the truth. You certainly did not treat me the way one would treat somebody who they liked. Almost inverse if I would be asked how I felt. I have no idea what you were thinking, but you were doing it all wrong.

I was very cautious with you for the past few weeks that lead up to me making my decision. I wanted to give you a second chance, and I did, over and over, but you then proved to me that you were not the one that I was looking for in this life. I reclined to joke with you with mindless namecalling and insulting. The fact was that I was scared to joke around with you, because you'd probably just break down emotionally and get into a pointless fight with me, and so I did my best to keep the things that might set you off to a minimum, but apparently that still did not work.

Do you want to know why I do not love you? If you don't already, you should ask yourself why I don't. You've proven to me that you cannot keep control of your emotions, and more often then not, let them take control of you yourself. Me and Khaiden have bent over backwards just to make sure you are okay, but you continue to bleed out your feelings and anger upon me and to a lesser extent, to the people around you as well. Whenever your emotions are taking hold of you, you don't cooperate with the most simplest directions, your attitude becomes terrible, and you bring everybody around you down. This is why I did not want to give you access to my account, you do not have the responsibility and control over yourself to hold it, and you have showed me that to me as well, which was why I always worried about what you would do if you became emotional and had the power to do what you wanted with my things.

I've asked you what was wrong when it was obvious that something was bothering you, and yet you blew me off like nothing. If it is true that you like me, then come talk to me seriously and say that you do. You have never sincerely done that before, and do not blame me for "not listening", because I am 110% certain that you have never truly told me that you liked me, amongst all of the times you have treated me like trash. You tell me that you don't want to do Salvage anymore, and that you don't care about it anymore, or you just want to keep doing it because the only incentive you have is to gain the things you still need, and in the next few days, you're back in the group, going in with us. I don't know whether you are lying, joking, or telling the truth anymore, and the fact that you cannot even keep true to your own words is very saddening to me. You're unable to tell whether i'm joking or telling the truth either, but it has come to the point where you will not believe anything of importance from me, hell, you probably think this whole thing is a joke too, but the truth is that it is not. It's the end, and I do not wish to continue with you anymore.

I am still looking for that special someone who I will want to stay with for the rest of my life, but you have proven to me time and again that you are not that person. To tell you the truth, I was infact in love with you at some point in time, but I have learned since then, and it looks like you are just another one of the many people (like my last girlfriend), who cannot stay consistent, truthful, and sincere with me, and that type of person is most certainly not someone whom i'd like to stay with for the rest of my life. I'm sorry if at times I made it seem like I actually loved you, even though I do not believe I have ever formally told you (likewise with yourself as well.), but I cannot love somebody like you.

I don't know why I started to chase after you.

I'm updating my blog again.

First AF +1 for Black Mage. Thank you LessQQMoarPewPew! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^__________________^b






WHAT

WHAT

Fuck your shit.

06 - 27 - 09 NOTHING

We didn't do Salvage today because Kiriyu is a douche.

06 - 26 - 09 Zhayolm Remnants

We did the remnants yet again... something went wrong today though. 2F didn't give us any rings. Not a single one. It was very saddening, probably because we brought SB today as Thief. (Very gimp.)

We decided to then improvise and go do 3F North and then Boss. We got Khaiden his Morrigan Cuffs 15 piece that he was planning to get in the long run, and I got Ares Hands 15 for my level 9 Dragoon.

I didn't take many screenshots of the run...



Kiriyu made me feel like logging out by 6F. I am considering dropping her from the group; the skill level of her Bard is abysmal at best.


7F/Boss floor pictures are all I have...




And the drops... exact same drops as last time, which means still no Skadi hands for Arsh...


After that, I was planning on going to go help Kiriyu with Lil' Apkallu because she said it was impossible to solo on Bard and that she needed a strong man to come help her, but then Ponto started begging me to do UG, so I went and got that done...


Khaiden got to the Riverne first and tried to solo a Pyrodrake on his Monk, but soon found out that it was harder then he thought, and swiftly recieved an ass-spanking.


I then enjoyed watching some Pyrodrakes while Khaiden ate shit. (l0l)


After awhile, Foxx proceeded to pull a Pyrodrake to begin the killage. I soon began to grow bored of the poor drake, so I decided to let him have his way with me for once instead of destroying him like I always do.


Other pictures... Ponto aggroed a wyvern towards the end but Khaiden valiantly came to the rescue, Chi Blasting the angry dragon off of Ponto. Khai then took one for the team yet again and ate shit, although Ponto couldn't swallow his pride to throw his savior a thankyou.


The actual fight lasted no more then a few seconds. Khai's face is broken.


Ponto is incredible!!!


WHY DO I ALWAYS GET MUSHROOM STEW?

WHY DO I ALWAYS GET MOTHERFUCKING MUSHROOM STEW?

I went to merit with Kiriyu and she got herself killed by a bad pull because she's a terrible puller. For shame.


Also, I figured out/finished my Sorcerer's Ring force-latent set. Now I have +52 MAB on BLM. (That's good.)


At the end of the day, I received a random tell asking for some help with a quest that required 6 of the same race to complete. It was for Mage's Ballad I found out, so I took a bit off to help the dude. It wasn't that hard really. Congratulations on Mage's Ballad Orangemarmalade!




That's it for today. Oh...





















And Kiriyu is nice.

























































I guess...........................

06 - 25 - 09 Zhayolm Remnants

We did 5f/Boss again today and still didn't get what we needed to get but got some decent stuff.









Sexyclad Chariot is very sexy.






.satchel


After that I went and did Limbus without Kiriyu (fat)




Then I went and SOLOED Wulgaru on COR, but then Kiriyu had to come and MPK me / miscellaneously fuck me up. How shameful!

Disregard Kiriyu casting Cure 3 on me, because that didn't happen.

LOOK AT THIS SHIT

What a jerk!


MPK'd by you know who.


Jornna came to watch after that.

Nothing dropped by the way, probably because Kiriyu was in the zone when I killed it.

After I killed Wulgaru I went and tried to solo Lil Apkallu.

Kiriyu wouldn't help me because she was too busy being "stucked".



Some people are just too mean...

6 - 24 - 09 Bhaflau Remnants

Do you like horror stories? I do. Do I like being in horror stories?

Well.



No.










































MOTHERFUCKER






















Some people are just so retarded it's scary.
I also did ZNM Chigre because I need to get to Wulgaru. It went good, except for Kiriyu force d/cing because she didn't want to help me. Jornna is my only true friend.

What a jerk!